My World

London based photographer

Most girls dream about one day going to Paris France, from the first movie they watch such as Funny Face, Moulin Rouge, Amelie, The Dreamers and many more; it captures them. Though they’ve never been, though they’ve never touched or seen it up close, Paris seduced them and made them fall in love. Fall in love with the idea of beauty, love, art, romance, flings, fashion, cigarettes, heels, red lipstick and the life of a parisian woman. All they wish for is to experience something more, to feel something greater then ever before.

I, Erlinda Goldie 24 year old young lady got to experience the life of a parisian and the dreams of  most young girls out there.

As you land at the airport you don’t feel as though it is real. You start to realize that you are in France when strangers around you are speaking a language that you don’t seem to comprehend. Then it hits you wow I’m in France , I am where every girl has dreamt of going since they feel in love with it’s beautiful city, Paris.

I lived in Paris for a year and even thought I didn’t experiences all the amazing things Paris had to offer I have to say Paris seduced me in a level I never thought possible. Paris doesn’t seduce women with fake promises, false hopes and money. It seduces us by simply being it’s beautiful old self. By letting us bring out a part of ourself that we knew we had but didn’t quite know how to let out. It’s not our wild side nor our romantic side it’s a side that makes us feel a little braver then normal, more adventures then ever before, and a style of gracefulness and class comes over us. It’s no longer about how we’ve viewed ourself back home but how we wish to view ourself in this beautiful city called Paris.

As you walk through the streets of Paris you will see how Paris is oozing with art and culture. You’ll hear music in the streets, lovers walking hand in hand with smiles on their faces, bakeries smelling of freshly baked goodies and cafe’s filled with people looking out onto the streets, people watching while drinking their coffee and conversing with friends/loved once and/or co-works. As you start to look at people all around you, you begin to notice their style. No matter if they are a rocker, goth, fashionista or just an average plain Jane, there is away they combine everything together to make it look timeless and sheeck. No mater what, they have a sense of style and they know what works for them.

When you go shopping you stop looking at clothes that you were comfortable wearing back home but start looking at clothes that not only make you feel new but make you feel like you have arrived at a point in your life that change is no longer hard to do but easy to achieve. It makes you want to explore your body and dress it up to show off your curves with elegance and posh. You want to look the best you can for pretty much everything you are doing, even if it’s your grocery shopping or doing laundry.

I don’t know what it is about Paris but it really puts you in a trance whether you wish for it or not. It’s surreal how much you change. I like to think I’ve changed for the better and have grown as a lady and became more of a women. Paris has been a good thing that I experienced in my life and I hope other women out there really enjoy it as much as I did. Put that nice black dress on, heels and red lipstick and have a blast in a city that will make love to you like you’ve always fantasized.

Here are some self-portraits of myself while in Paris. Enjoy xox :)

A Young Lady In Paris France

The reality of pursuing photography in a new foreign country that you have no friends, no connections and nobody to really talk to is hard. I moved to Paris France a year ago, it was the most exciting and thrilling thing I had ever done in my life. I had and still have the dream of my work becoming something big, something people can love or hate, something that can move people in any way possible.

Paris is one of the cities to be when you want to pursue photography as your career. Now as much as Paris has all the things you need to “make it” as an establish photographer it has also A LOT of walls for you to break through or clam over (which ever way you wish to make your entrance). Not to mention coming from a smaller city where photography wasn’t as big, the competition is a lot greater and better here (no offense to my fellow photographers back home). So you have to make sure you can sell yourself well. Photography is your business if you can’t market yourself then you will have problems.

Here is how my experience was when I lived there.

  • When thinking about moving to a country such as France make sure you know the language or some what know it or at least be good at languages so its easy for you to pick up. (Something I lacked in)
  • Be prepared to be doing a lot of paper work if you are not a French citizen or part of the European Union. France is known for its crazy paper work but its even worse for out siders. (It’s not as easy as you think moving to another part of the world)
  • Once you’re going through the proses of getting your living/working papers in order you will have time to build your new portfolio because even though your old portfolio got you in the door you need a new one to keep you in the room. So do your research and contact every agency in town and ask to meet with them.
  • Start going to parties, mingle with people. This wont be as hard because a lot of people in the entertainment/fashion industry speak english and a lot of them are just like you or were once just like you and can usually help you out.
  • While everything sounds pretty simple so far and somewhat the same as it was for you back home to start in photography you have to remember, while you are doing all these things you aren’t working! So all your savings are flowing like water from a tap and it wont stop till your paper work is in order and that will take a good 4-7 months (shorter time if you start meeting people and they share loop holes or have connections)
  • Make sure you make a budget as soon as you can when you come to Paris you will need it and you must  live by it if you wish to survive. At some point you will realize you need a part time job (good luck with that).

When I was back home in Toronto Canada I was oblivious when it came to “making it” as a photographer. Sure you hear it from many people. Friends and acquaintances saying it isn’t always about the talent and the photographs you produce its about  ”WHO YOU KNOW”.  Moving to Paris makes you realize that those people were right. Connections are the key to successes. It’s true, it matters who you know and who ever says otherwise is lying.

So if you are an outgoing person and friendly and can mingle and connect with people pretty easily you will

a) have a good and easy time making friends/connections

or

b) find it hard to be in a new environment that even though people are friendly they don’t really have an interest in making new friends since they are happy with the friends they have now.

I have noticed that Parisians stick together and also have a lot of friends that they have known since they were babies. You will think its the same everywhere you go and I agree it is but here it’s extreme. From what I’ve notice and from what others have shared with me Parisians aren’t that interested in making new friends. Don’t worry though, there are a lot of great English, Canadian and US pubs and restaurants here that you will meet people just like you. You will make friends in time don’t be discouraged.

A lot of my friends back home were asking me how Paris treating me while I was there and how much did I enjoy it? In all honesty as beautiful as Paris was. I missed  home. Who wouldn’t right? Paris does have it’s beauty and inspiration but it didn’t have all the people that you have grown with as an individual and also as a photographer.

At the end of the day my dream of becoming a photographer was slowly coming to life. It will take awhile before anything comes together. Everything takes time and for those that are inpatient like myself will have a hard time believing anything good will come out of it. Don’t let it get to you and make sure you don’t forget why you moved to Paris for. As long as that dream is still strong you can do it.

Here are some photographs I’ve done while I lived in Paris. Enjoy :)

 

 

On August 26th I arrived in Athens Greece, the place I once called home when I was a child. I was mostly excited but also kind of scared because well, last time I was there was in May of 1996 when I was just 8 years old. Change is always hard to handle and the unknown is always a bit frightening. My husband and I were in awe when we were on the bus from Tirana to Athens, seeing all the beautiful landscapes and travelling by the ocean. We stayed in Athens for about two weeks. We didn’t get to see many things unfortunately because we were busy with a lot of paperwork and figuring out the next travel plans to Paris as well as visiting model agencies for future jobs. We did get to see the Acropolis but kind of from a far. Athens is a place that we will visit again in the future so we weren’t worried about seeing all its beauty on this trip.

As time flew by, we noticed that we hadn’t shot anything in ages so I got in touch with a young talented photographer named Thanos Houtos who helped us out with organizing a shoot for us. He arranged a stylist and a make-up artist that he knew and set up a meeting for us all to talk over ideas. He also figured out which models were in town and available and arranged the model for the shoot so we were lucky to have him co-ordinate and put it all together. It was like having a local producer and really made our lives easier.

Here are the photos I did from that shoot. Enjoy

The team:

A few months ago, while in Albania, I was trying to keep myself occupied (when you are a girl in a country such as Albania there isn’t much you can do). Anyhow, I was trying to shoot but there were no modelling agencies in the city or in the whole country for that matter. I tried the whole going downtown and asking random girls that I found pretty and interesting enough to want to shoot but  most of them didn’t give me the time of day. They would walk right past me and the ones that did stop and gave me a chance to talk would let me talk for a few minutes before telling me “they aren’t gay”. When I first heard that I was shocked and speechless (those that know me know I am not one to be quiet and have nothing to say) but this came out of the blue and I wasn’t expecting it at all. I was left dumbfounded and just in awe of what just had happened. I didn’t let it discourage me though. I still kept at it and I heard that saying a few more times and I would tell them “I’m not gay, I am happily married, I’m a Canadian photographer visiting family and just want to photograph people”. Nothing worked. So I just bowed my head down in shame and took myself back home. Since no one would let me shoot them I had a lot of time on my hands.

I had nothing better to do so I decided to make a few videos. These videos aren’t amazing by any means but I had fun and they were my first ever attempt to make something different. Since I had a huge problem with finding models I stuck to shooting myself hahaha

Hope you enjoy them.

Music: Deftones – Change / Music: The Cinematic Orchestra – To Build A Home

Change

Build A Home

    Self-Portrait

    First Video

    So I have been in Tirana Albania for a little over two months and I have to say I am not thrilled about it but I am trying to make the best out of it. I’ve been going out with my cousin trying to enjoy myself as much as possible till my husband comes. I’ve been also keeping busy by looking for work here and just shooting for who every is willing to hire me :)

    So I was hired by a magazine here in Tirana called ANABEL. I did a swim suit editorial for them in Durres. Check out the photos. There will be many more to come since I am in the talks with a few other magazines to work with them freelance! YAY!!

    Hope you like them (Please note the Cover is not shot by me Photographed by: Geljant Kaleci

    I’ve been published in Supplementaire Magazine. Its a UK magazine and its also print 300 pages.
    Hope you enjoy! :)

    Supplementaire Magazine

    May 12, 2010

    These photos I have posted up are of a shoot I did in April before I left Canada. I got to shoot with one of my favourite stylists Jamie Rae (she is amazing). We shot outdoors and with my luck not only did it rain but it also hailed. Thank you Canada for your unpredictable weather. The model was a trooper. She still rocked the shoot with the little amount of clothing she had on lol.

    Hope you enjoy the photos as much as I enjoyed creating them :)

    Make-up: Floe and Stylist: Jamie Rae

    Last Shoot In Canada

    May 11, 2010

    I have been in Tirana for the past 11 days and I’ve had the pleasure of seeing some of its true beauty that this unrecognized country has. Albania has so much potential as a country and many amazing things it has to offer, but it will never become well known nor be a part of the European Union unless the Albanian people change their way of living and most of all their way of thinking. Albania is Europe’s darkest corner and I hope as most of us Albanian’s hope that our country one day gets a light shining its way!

    Enjoy the photos!

    This is Tirana’s Beauty

    Beauty In The Darkest Corner

    May 7th, 2010

    On May 5th , 2010 I went to visit my grandpa’s grave. Last time I saw my grandpa I was 14 years old him and my grandma came to Canada to visit us. My grandpa past away 2 years ago and I was in Canada while my mom and brother were here in Albania. I didn’t get to hug or kiss him one last time nor get to go to the funeral. Going to see someone who the last time you’ve  seen them they were alive, kind of freaked me out. It hits you hard and makes it reality that they are truly gone. I haven’t cried that hard since god knows when. It killed me inside. I kissed his photo there hugged him and talked to him. The hardest thing was when we had to leave. I couldn’t. my feet felt like they were nailed to the ground. I wanted to stay there forever.

    When I got home I was talking to my grandma, she still feels the pain of my grandpa being gone and said it will never get easier. She said something to me that will never leave me. She said “Eri I have lost my mother, my father, and my sister and it was painful but nothing has been as painful as losing my husband, your life partner that you have experienced everything with, who knows you inside and out. It feels like you are no longer complete, you feel empty and no matter what something will always be missing.

    I hope I never have to feel that kind of pain. :(

    My Grandpa. Rest In Peace! I love you so much <3

    Life Partner

    May 4th, 2010

    I’ve been in Albania for the past 4 days now and I can not put in words how much I have missed my family. My brother Elvis who I haven’t seen in 7 years and my mother who I haven’t seen in 6 years. My dearest  grandma who I haven’t seen since I was 14 years old and my cousins, aunts and uncles since I was 8 years old. Its been great spending time with them all!

    Everything looks so different yet all to familiar. Remembering places where I used to play when I was younger, blurry faces clearing up and my mind begins to piece them together. I feel lost when I am out and about, people  looking at me like I do not belong, talking about me thinking I don’t understand them. So many people are so vulgar and have such animal characteristics here.

    Feels weird to see animals roaming the streets eating garbage. Watching kids up to 4 years old walking around bare foot on the street looking for food all by themselves, sleeping on the street late at night with no one there to take care of them. I have never felt this kind of sadness like I’ve felt these past few days of witnessing all these things. I used to think my glass was always half empty, this life experience has opened my eyes and shown me that my glass has always been half full!

    Its Only Half Full……….

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