May 7th, 2010
On May 5th , 2010 I went to visit my grandpa’s grave. Last time I saw my grandpa I was 14 years old him and my grandma came to Canada to visit us. My grandpa past away 2 years ago and I was in Canada while my mom and brother were here in Albania. I didn’t get to hug or kiss him one last time nor get to go to the funeral. Going to see someone who the last time you’ve seen them they were alive, kind of freaked me out. It hits you hard and makes it reality that they are truly gone. I haven’t cried that hard since god knows when. It killed me inside. I kissed his photo there hugged him and talked to him. The hardest thing was when we had to leave. I couldn’t. my feet felt like they were nailed to the ground. I wanted to stay there forever.
When I got home I was talking to my grandma, she still feels the pain of my grandpa being gone and said it will never get easier. She said something to me that will never leave me. She said “Eri I have lost my mother, my father, and my sister and it was painful but nothing has been as painful as losing my husband, your life partner that you have experienced everything with, who knows you inside and out. It feels like you are no longer complete, you feel empty and no matter what something will always be missing.
I hope I never have to feel that kind of pain. 
My Grandpa. Rest In Peace! I love you so much <3
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- My grandma, my brother, my grandpa and I :)
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- My Grandpa & I
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